At least consider it. And I hope you know I’d give references for you to confirm that, but, that’s just weird, and I’m clearly not weird. Oh, um, soooooooooo, also, at present, my sister is absolutely out of my life, I’m told. Three: Don’t Freak Out Because You Did. Because my now “I’m dead to her” sister, once again, should have been BETTER. I can’t ignore But it’s MY stain Editorial response to an anonymous query: Yes, my Mom knows about this post, and yes, I did read it to her. And oh no, you say I won't hurt you. I’ve ALWAYS wanted this to be an honest and raw space where I share my feelings and am open to accepting yours. I want us, I want you, I want me, and I want Peace. – oar “PEACE”. AJ Bad for You ℗ Cope Records Released on: 2020-06-18 Auto-generated by YouTube. If you’re advocating for ANY Black Life, yet attack BLACK LGBTQIA++ LIVES as LESS THAN YOUR HETERO BLACK LIFE, I TRULY DON’T THINK YOU’RE UNDERSTANDING THE MOVEMENT. About to get my hair done by the ONE and ONLY Master so I’m obviously excited out of my fucking mind. bad movies many flaws not interesting and rather boring i would say these are just watchable Refine See titles to watch instantly, titles you haven't rated, etc Instant Watch Options No more needing to connect with someone — anyone — so badly — that I convince myself that my body has been used and abused SO MANY TIMES that I don’t care that it’s my ticket in — the price of admission. We all are. Pun intended. And I’ll take the kids to school You wouldn’t really ever know, Not until you’ve cut yourself in secret “The problem — she’s starting to understand — is that a man will never let you fall completely into Hell. In the end, I’m not over any of the above. What you are doing to a family. "Ospital lang. Too much power given to people we the people never chose I’m white blonde and tiny enough that these Nazi like cops ain’t disturbin’ How does it feel to know I don’t hate you? Sometimes I Think She Must Get Off On Turning Me ON. INCLUDING LGBTQIA++ Black Lives I’m not a Saint I don’t know who I used protection with or not. I look forward to seeing these men on a weekly basis (That wasn’t a question.). Though…not without some truly painful tribulations. I cannot drive because I’m now narcoleptic, and it’s really scary, and the first time it happened was while I was driving. Learn to See Me As A Brother Instead Of Two Distant Strangers. It’s cute and I want to fuel you, I know that’s a bit creepy so before you call the police heir, justcallmecai, gbs. We had to get out and run as fast we can. I’m not a Writer who writes a hate letter, tucks it away, then burns it later just to get it out of me — my head, my life, my memory. ♥️✌️ and as always — be good to each other ✌️♥️. And she lost everything because of it... Yaman, mga kaibigan, at ang pinakamamahal niyang si Mac De Guzman. Mostly. A Brother who fights me constantly but loves me just as much as he fights. It’s not that I don’t agree, it’s just not something I think anyone should say to anyone else, and certainly not a parent to a very ill, unable to exercise for 4+ medical reasons, hates herself because of all of this, and would rather never eat again than have someone say that about her, meanwhile being always ashamed that she even fucking cares that ANYONE calls her fat because she doesn’t value that — and I personally would NEVER fucking judge ANYONE for such a reason. Man. Because I’m not used to giving up on things when they’re still possible. Alien skin aside, I’m human. Who take a simple test to aquire those Happy Father’s Day to those who are Father’s. WTF?! academy, garnet, heir. I have and it’s atrocious and something’s gotta be done But I am at peace with the statement that I’m not wrong in this case — and I’m either explaining what I’m saying poorly, or perhaps you’re not willing to hear what I’m trying to say. Just gone. “Baby Can You Come Over?” I Always Find Those Words At The Bottom Of 100 Proof. How could you talk? Having been her SAT bitch for several years, I thought (unless she changed jobs too) she didn’t get cell phone service in the school. Getting more proud of myself for my dedication to “get better,” (which is NOT what we call it in the program but you get the picture), even. I mean, we need food to live. Garnett Elementary School. Even the dogs in the street knew that I worked far too hard. As always, be good to each other. NEW RULES. Just say you won’t let go Common sense had never been a strong point for her. This most important song in my life was not my every day, before you. Mar 21, 2020 - "If there's a book that you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it." For making you cry. THIS…is a REALLY painful week for me. I have more memories about us with music than not. Stronger Than I Was. Men in uniform laughing at our problems CHURCH. I also relate to the content in the above quotes. #MacLia ️ Read here: Who Want To See My Greatness? If my Dad were still alive….Everything in my life would be better. I have to say I’ve never regretted the tradeoff: MY PROTEST OF SOMETHING I LOVED FOR THE SAKE OF SOMETHING THAT MATTERED MORE TO ME. It’s not like I have to go to my sister’s wedding because I’m not invited. You’re amazing. Wanting to step outside of my body galore. "Yes, but you need to undergo therapy.". Read Chapter 13 from the story Bad For You by justcallmecai (Captain C) with 9,842 reads. My first rapist didn’t make me a survivor. #ChasingAfterYouWP Chapter 13 And, maybe in a different post, I can reveal some tough truths about how that above statement is ironic and even maybe hypocritical. Nothing but mad respect for you and wishing you all good things in your retirement. I’m just a pissed off white girl sick of white cops killing Black Lives….Among a lot of other atrocious things that are happening. Thanks again for lying to God, Barbara, (my Godmother), because I spoke my true feelings toward a very aggressive move on your part, even getting your daughter, Laura, involved and since you were in love with my Dad even though you’re RELATED BY BLOOD, so my parents chose you because my Mom is so beyond more amazing than you could have ever been. Trying to OWN my treatment and continuing to make my Counselor and Group proud. I’m not a good source to speak to that for basically EVERY reason. Did you see the person who shot you?" They? But you’d never know I mean — if she can’t sit with the family for a Christmas card, she should definitely get on her new family’s phone plan if she hasn’t already, right?! Mabilis na nagsibagsakan ang luha sa mga mata ko. And, like Heath Ledger’s death, because he was JUST trying to sleep — needing that SO badly (coupled with the added bonus of my having been on many of the same medications as he was) when he ingested the wrong mix of everything — you know — the ones that killed him — also continues to destroy me as much. And I’mma still be humble when I scream “FUCK YOU” When I mourn one person who was in my life and then I lost because they have died, I tend to mourn all of those people at once. (Mom and Dad get first dibs on that call.). Not until you’re ready to inhale blood I’m tired of not seeing his face in my memories every day. So, I’d mailed them to her tenured place of employment, out of respect for her wanting me NOT to know where she lives (again, even though she is the one that gave me the address). Hindi ko na alam kung paano pa itutuloy. And I want my readers to know that I appreciate things and I feel like I am blessed in many many ways and that Xbox One is just one tiny, and perhaps silly, but extremely meaningful example of how much I’m blessed, though a material thing, part of it. I need to digest why that even matters to me I think) is such an amazing friend that she even offered to and actually did reach out to my sister on my behalf. Enjoy ! But I had to share my find because this was just fucking crazy. My next Partner won’t be any port in a storm. One: Pick Up The Phone. I love how much you love food Queue the lyrics to my song of choice for this revelation: I met you in the dark, you lit me up Look at me, it obviously didn’t require finesse Bad For You is now updated! To decide where they are going to shop, what they’re gonna eat, what movies they are going to watch, everything they ingest.”, “Okay. (He wanted me to go to Church that year, for the record). The only thing I’ve added is a title. It NEVER will And mean. Wow. I’m just a pissed off white girl who fucking LOVED NFL football UNTIL the NFL does what IT HAS ALWAYS done: the NFL used oppression to shut something as important as viewers’ ability to watch the Star Spangled Banner down. Because Drunk Me Can’t Get Over You. (I’m SO writing about said circumstances soon because I want anyone who might happen upon this and who might not get it — to get woke. And the irony of posting this on devices to be read by those plugged in is not lost on me. Turning Me On Like It’s Her Job. The house we grew up in — and — that I unfortunately am again living in — had been getting phone calls from her pharmacy. It makes me so unhappy. I’m tired of my hands not working making it extremely painful to write. My Mom told me my sister indeed moved but that my sister also didn’t want me to know where she is living. Just know in most ways this is really about me, You’re beautiful You gotta get up and move on, Tell me, how the Hell could you talk? I’m GOOD. Or Are You Deceived? For a minute, I forget that I’m older For a minute, I was stone-cold sober Whether she even touches the doorknob or not is yet to be seen (the call went straight to voicemail, and I haven’t heard back) — but at least I tried. My cognition is essentially jumbly and totally fucked. Y’all embarrassing our country AND THAT EXCUSE IS SO TIRED The leading source for getting all of your 'is it bad for you' questions answered, backed by our team of Board Certified medical doctors & nutritionists. To have and to hold and to lock away for as long as we both might live, And then the smile I was looking the actresses up on IMDB, and in interviews, etc., and I love what Daniela Sea (aka Max on “The L Word”) says about her sexuality: “But I…don’t believe that gender is just binary, and I never have, so that’s what pulls me to sometimes politically identify as a lesbian, and I still feel like women are so suppressed. Check your government’s website to confirm. In fact I’ve stopped checking it more than 3 times a day (unless something urgent is happening, obviously). Everyone was either a girl or a boy and they would all get married to whatever sex they weren’t themselves (heterosexuality). But now I KNOW that I lie to myself AND understand the consequences of that — and THAT’S?! and whenever I’m assuming the perspective of a broken-hearted person, a hopeful person waiting for THE ONE they love to come back, or even worse, a person mourning a dead character — I’ve been mourning my ex of 5 years in the place of the missing character. Enjoy the videos and music you love, upload original content, and share it all with friends, family, and the world on YouTube. "Hindi dapat kita iniwan. I mean, we basically all are anyway, right? But, yeah, anyway, I want to scream at my friends, (gay ex-boyfriend/soulmate included), “I’M STILL FUCKING ALIVE, SO SINCE YOU CAN UPDATE FACEBOOK, GO ON INSTAGRAM, TWEET, SEND MASS EMAILS, OR SNAPCHAT, then you can text me back!!!!!!!!!!!”. Blindingly inarticulate. Every time I go ANYWHERE with a purpose, I kiss his picture — and I don’t give a flying fuck how that makes anyone feel about that either. It’s also safe to say that a LOT of TRUTH was dumped on me around this time. I want to do shout-outs but the number is so low I’d be embarrassed. That’s kind of my update on my life as I cry this week. Caught by surprise and shock, she told me it wasn’t a good time calling me by an old nickname (THE NERVE!!!!! And it’s on a permanent basis, I’m told. Who goes out of his way to be around me. I also can’t go anywhere that matters if I need to use words that make sense alone. My most magnificent Mommy heard me say how much I missed playing with him, and he helped her set up this new Xbox One (which I didn’t ask for and I don’t feel like I deserve) but I’m extremely grateful that she bought for me. Like, after his death I didn’t even know what I doing most of the time. #peaceandloveforlivesandlovesomemore, #pride (because I love months dedicated to celebrating civil liberties (or lack thereof), but I also think such division hurts INCLUSIVITY as well — like saying — you’re not one of everyone else so here’s your one month to shine). I guess I was feeling sorry for myself last February 14th. When I tried to reach out to her— THE last way I could — via USPS — some inspirational cards, a poem, “Still I Rise” by a hero of mine, Maya Angelou, a story about every single good act mattering. This was my second bout of major depression. This thing makes my heart ache, and my stomach queasy. And I’m no longer more than willing to pay for the affection I get in return. We danced the night away, we drank too much Yet. I have been told that I’m insane for thinking I’ve been gaslighted. I wrote my undergrad senior thesis on stereotypes, so I strongly feel like it’s ignorant to ignore them. So I must. Holy Sniyikies! Mar 21, 2020 - "If there's a book that you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it." But this one is particularly special. And my friends told me they couldn’t give up watching football “just” because of “that,” because I couldn’t and wouldn’t make a difference. I’ve always been terrible at math — something every law professor I ever had made a joke about in at least one lecture during the semester, which I always thought was odd as Hell — but I digress. But I’m trying. You should be ashamed of yourselves and yeah I’m judgmental I was obsessed with colorful sneakers, especially Converse once I “discovered” them. PARTICULARLY in school, the progression of my learning about sex went like this: 1. As much as I DON’T care how you judge me, I DO care about my story being told in my own words so that when you INEVITABLY juxtapose your life choices against mine — you’ll be able to grapple with ALL of the facts and information I can possibly provide. Honest to God or whatever, I am so embarrassed that she reacted to LK in that way, and, of course, it was evident that she STILL didn’t “get it.”. This is the last part of this story. Tumango-tang ako sa kanya tapos ay inalalayan niya akong makabangon. Now, as I mentioned, this week is hitting me really hard. But that’s irrational. (Just to her though.) At least consciously. Until cops stop murdering black men on what feels like a daily basis I never heard about the reply so one day I asked — and my friend revealed my sister essentially just sent her links for how I could/should get help from certain resources — like she probably does with the high schoolers she counsels. I AM also supremely attracted to specific types of women. Um, so yeah. From food and drink, to supplements and medicine, we are here to tell you what is bad and what is not. Don’t ask my opinion ", "Sa binti lang naman ang tama ko." Ipagpatuloy ang pagbabasa ng susunod na bahagi. Tila ba nagkatinik ako sa lalamunan. Stereotypically, (according to my life experiences only), athletes, who play, like basketball, or baseball, or soccer — pretty much any team sport — in my experience, were always bullying those of us who dared to be comfortable in their differences, and nearly tortured the ones who were just trying to keep their heads down. Why is the world so base? Don’t ask me to lie, then beg for forgiveness. ‘Cause when you fall, you gotta get up It’s a simple question with a not-so-simple answer. 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